My biggest pet peeve really is when people can’t mind their own business or try to get involved with a situation that has absolutely NOTHING to do with them.
Minding your own business makes you mature, not because it’s dodging drama, but because it’s simply the best thing to do if you really think about it.
There are two sides to every story, or in some cases 3. Generally speaking.
And only the people involved fully understand the entire situation. Any outsiders just believe whatever’s told to them. But if you’re fucking SMART and fucking GROWN, you would back the fuck out of what isn’t your business & let the people involved figure their own shit out. Fuck, it’s really not that hard.
I love listening to old rock that reminds me of my parents. It reminds me of all the camping trips, all the traditions, all the memories we shared when we were all together as a family. I would give anything in the world to have my family and home life back together. Now I just get to sit here & only hope.
EWWWWW just stop. Just stop fucking stealing my swag, please.
It really sucks when you finally face the reality of a major situation.
All my life I’ve had you, I’ve had you as my best friend, my sister, my other half, my partner in crime, my ride or die. We’d be everywhere together, we could make a room full of silence into a room full of laughter & we wouldn’t care what anyone thought of us. We just had each other & that’s all that really mattered.
I love you to the moon and back and I always want you to be happy, you deserve to be happy. You deserve nothing but that.
But facing the facts the past couple of days, you’ve changed. You’ve changed so much it hurts in fact. I don’t know if you see it, but I do.
I miss the days when we would go out and be reckless together, when we would actually have fun together, the days when we didn’t give a fuck. I understand growing up and maturing but we’re only nineteen years old.. You have time to act like you’re forty, when you’re forty.
I’m glad you went and fell in love, because you’re happiness means a lot to me. But, you’re deserting a lot of people too. You’re leaving them behind and I don’t even think you see it. I will always love you, and always support you like I have for the past 13 years. But I can’t deny to myself, I just miss the old you. So much.
But I can’t be selfish in this situation.
I love you sister, you will always be my other half. Family may go their separate ways for a little but they always stick together. I will always believe that in my heart. I just miss you.
I will always think that the story of how my grandparents met is the most adorable thing in the entire world.
My grandpa was born in Kansas, my grandma in Japan. Two completely different people in two completely different places.
My grandpa was ported to Japan to be a pharmacist during the war, my grandma being a nurse, they met and fell madly in love. Nine months later, my mom was born in Fukuoka, Japan. When she was three years old, they crossed over to the states. All 3 of them, together. As a new family.
I think about this all the time. Imagine how much you’d have to love someone to give up your whole life in a completely different country to start over in an unfamiliar one.. I’d imagine a lot.
I seriously laugh at 95% of the people I personally know because everyone’s just so caught up in their ego’s it’s just ridiculous. Nobody’s ever just content with just doing their own thing, relying on themselves, or being alone. No, people just have to be that desperate to jump up and attack the opportunity to be accepted and admired, to have friends, to appear to be cool as fuck on the outside when half the time the exterior doesn’t even slightly match the interior just because they regard other people’s opinions too much & too seriously. This isn’t just me being cliché or typical, it’s me just getting deep in my thoughts as always. But all I do is laugh to myself, because I seriously can’t stand majority of the people that live here. Not trying to sound anti-social, just being completely honest.
My mom is ze cutest
I want to be here to love and support you. But I have some things I need to straighten out for myself. Sometimes you just have to do what’s best, even if it’s not what you want.
I hope you can see it that way.
Something I really can’t do,
is live around negative energy. I’ve spent so long building up a stable mindset for myself & I’m comfortable with it. & that’s what makes this so hard because I love the living hell out of you but I just wish you’d think a lot more positive. It would actually do you a lot of good & I just wish you would take my advice and actually apply it. I’m a dependable person but that doesn’t mean I don’t have problems of my own I’m already stressing about & that certainly doesn’t mean I have the answers to yours..
As much as I hate getting into political debates with people, sometimes it has to be done because people are just so fucking ignorant.
Hearing how weak your voice is, and getting the news I got is not what I need right now. I miss you everyday & love you so much, as a person. Still hearing your positive words & your smart ass attitude makes me smile but cry at the same time. You are forever in my heart, and I hope to God, you pull through. Somebody, anybody, please help :’(
In all honesty,
fuck divorce.
At first, the thought of it didn’t really seem like it would be as harsh as it really is but now that I’ve experienced it in my life, it’s a piece of shit. Especially when all your life you’ve been accustomed to & so comfortable with your parents being together & then all of a sudden it’s all taken away. Your home no longer has the comforting feeling it once did, you walk around only to feel the memories it once held, & you constantly have a homesick feeling because both halves of your heart are in two separate places. It’s even shittier knowing that it’s not going to ever be the same. It’s literally like a piece of your heart is missing. So many mixed emotions. It’s been two years since my parents separated & I’m STILL adjusting to the changes. It fucking sucks.
Future child of mine, just know that I promise I will try my hardest to hold it together for you so you don’t have to experience something like this.
About me.
I’m 5 ft half an inch tall. I’m well known as the little asian where I’m from. I’m a real laid back chick, don’t let much get the best of me. I twirl my hair with my fingers all the time, done it ever since I was a little one, it’s not because I’m tryna’ be cute. I’m very observant, I analyze people very thoroughly. I’ve got a good head on my shoulders & a compassionate heart in my chest. I’m blunt as fuck BUT I also have a filter on my mouth & I think before I speak. which is hard for a lot of people. I keep to myself & I’m not an open book for anyone to read, I keep it that way for a reason. I tell the people I love that I love them multiple times a day, not because I want to hear it back but just for the soul fact that I want them to know because tomorrow isn’t promised. I’m classy & cute but when I open my mouth some hood ass shit comes out sometimes, I just like bein’ real. I smoke weed to ease my mind. I’m a hellian, rules are not for me because most likely, I’ll break them. Chances are if you talk shit, I could give a fuck less & you don’t phase me anyways. I don’t have a lot of friends, I don’t need a lot of friends because the ones I do have are just fine. I handle my own business, I depend on nobody but myself. What’s common sense to me seems to be rocket science to others. In love with space & the night life. OH AND, I’m probably one of the best drivers in the world. Especially when I’m high.
It’s so weird to think that this time last year, I was in California loving the beach & soaking up the sun. I miss it so much, it was like love at first sight.
